I have been listening to music as of lately, incase you haven’t been able to tell. & one song by Tegan and Sara has struck a chord with me because it describes pretty well how I have felt in my situation with Tim.
Caught in the act, you were on my mind
Lucky for you, now I’m on your mind
And so I go back home to be by myself
I try everything I’ve ever read
Desperate, I still can’t get you out of my head
I wish I could get him out of my head — I hate feeling like such a girl — but for some reason, I’m a little stuck on him.
What’s a girl to do? I’m CB, CB doesn’t get crushes! Well, apparently I do, but for argument’s sake here, I don’t. Not usually. He’s not even much of my type, if I have one. I also don’t see how we can manage any kind of future as he lives an hour north of me. He has 2 kids — 3 and 6 years-of-age. Really, the kids aren’t a big deal because I love kids. & kids love me.
It maybe doesn’t help that I have been watching The Notebook repeatedly the last week or so. I don’t care about your thoughts on that movie, I just love it.
I’m such a sap.
CB the Sap.