My social anxiety is on overdrive. My sister got married the 29th because 29 means everything to her. I had a tough enough time going to the small ceremony only to now face a decent sized reception party where there will be some 20 odd guests attending here in my home. They are going to eat and start drinking here before they take off to downtown. It’s only going to be a couple of hours, but it’s enough to fill me with dread.
I am excited for my sister, I love her to death — don’t get me wrong on that, please. I just don’t feel like facing the crowd. I wish I didn’t have this anxiety. I wish I could be like a “normal” human being.