Last night suicidal thoughts infiltrated my mind. I know it’s weak, and selfish. I know the devastation it would cause to my loved ones. That’s why they only remained thoughts and I didn’t act upon them.
I am stuck and I am scared. I am scared of looking for employment. I am scared of having to explain why I haven’t been employed for over a year. I am scared of being interviewed. I am scared of going psychotic again.
I am scared of change and depressed from this monotony that has become my life.
In other news, we have a new addition to the family. Her name is Thai and she is a 10 month old German Shepard mix. We get to pick her up tomorrow and that is something to look forward to.
- Student ‘suicidal thoughts’ warning (bbc.co.uk)
- I’m scared (scarredgirlsite.wordpress.com)
- NEWS: Exposure to suicide makes youth more suicidal: new research study (nunatsiaqonline.ca)
- suicide is NOT the unforgivable sin, Jenny Price (iwokeupyesterday.com)